A thousand years; I was attending a memorial service a few weeks ago and a statement was made that hit me right between the eyes, ‘2 Peter 3:8 – But, beloved, do not forget this one thing, that with the Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day.’
This verse doesn’t mean that one day on earth equals a thousand years in heaven, or that one day in heaven equals a thousand years on earth; it simply means that God does not regard time as man does, because He is not bound by it.
For the last 17 years I have tried to figure out what it would be like to talk with my sons, not to them but with them, actually have a conversation. And I’ve tried to convey through my book and this blog what conversations I would like to have with them and also to educate you about them in case I leave this earth before they do. Somewhere around the boys 9th birthday I was wondering out loud with a group of friends about what God was asking me to do or become by way of the boys birth and one of my friends replied ‘Kelly, if you are asking God questions and looking for answers, God is answering you, just look around and pay attention.’
That very statement led me to write my first book “The Trials and Triumphs of Down Syndrome ©” and the writing of that book was good therapy for me, it allowed me to express my feelings and acknowledge my wife and those that had been supportive to us since the birth of our sons. My book was published in 2009 and since then I have gotten lost is trying to market the book in order to provide for my family.
You know how you get lost on your way to ‘doing’ something, some call it ADHD, some call it “I’m just too busy to get anything done.” Whatever you call it, I became distracted, life got in the way . . . or did it? As I was thinking back to what my friend said it dawned on me that I had stopped looking around and paying attention. Life doesn’t ‘get in the way’ it does pass quicker than we imagine and each and every day we are creating a future for ourselves, our families and children and for those we may never meet, we simply fail to realize it until time runs out . . . or until we get slapped in the face that we had better start paying attention.
You see in my attempt to prepare myself for the conversations I can have with my sons in heaven I forgot one very important thing; ‘what will they say to me?’ Will they tell me that I have been a good dad? What will they tell God about me and what will God say to me about what I have done or not done? Have I done the very best I could possibly do in being a good father to my sons and husband to my wife?
In our search to become more or better or smarter or better looking or healthier or you name it . . . are we doing what we are doing for ourselves and how it will make us feel about us? Or should we be doing it for how it will make others feel about themselves. Or both . . .?
I’ll be paying more attention now, every day counts, and every thing matters.